We are slowly settling in to our new life and new rolls. Scott is enjoying his new job and adapting well. I am starting to realize that I don't have to go to work tomorrow so I don't need to rush through the day trying to get everything squeezed in. Zandra is loving all of this new time together but is confused as to why I get to be home with her and Scott doesn't.
It's hard to not have an identity now other than wife and mother. Before I was a nurse, a friend, a dreamer... now I am just Zandra's mom and Scott's wife. I think that will be my new struggle - to enjoy and embrace this time but not lose myself so deeply in it that I am not able to resurface when this period of my life is past. I will always be Zandra's mom and Scott's wife, but at some point I will want to be more than that again. For now that is more than enough though. Zandra and I are filling our days with art, exploring, planting the garden, learning letters and words, and a million other things to numerous to list. For now that is more than enough - to be with my loves and explore the world with them at my side.
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