I know it's been awhile, but it's been a busy time! The three week road trip, getting home and resettled... I keep sitting down to write the details of the trip but I just haven't had the energy to devote to it so here's the short version - The trip was disturbed as soon as I arrived in New Mexico by the death of my great-grandmother, Mammy, who was 99 1/2 years old. As death always does, this brought my family together into the same small geographical space, and me back into West Texas. My family functions on a tentative peace that is strengthened by distance but crumbles when any reality is inflicted on it, and this was no exception. Dysfunction at it's finest, but we move forward again from here. After 3 days in Texas we went back to New Mexico and Zandra and I then made the rounds into Albuquerque and saw the rest of those that we love, not because we have to but because we are fortunate enough to have them in our lives.
Being home after 3 weeks away is wonderful. I'm able to walk without crutches or a cane and I am no longer wallowing in self pity and pain so the trip worked as I was hoping it would. As soon as I got home Scott and I left Z with Mom and Missy and went camping in the Redwoods for 3 days. I'm not able to express the feeling that being in those old trees gave me other than to say it was amazing and I can't wait to go back there again. The deep sense of peace and rightness about the place is overwhelming, and to just sit and listen to the trees was an experience I can't wait to share with Zandra.
Back at home we are finally all unpacked, office included, and just enjoying each other. Last weekend we went to see the Bubble Man (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HH41itotQ8E) and finished preparing for the latest addition to the family - Princess Pickle. That's right, we are finally getting a kitten. I know, chaos reigns supreme in my life, what can I say? Zandra's allergies and asthma have been basically non-existent since we moved here and Scott for the first time in his life is thinking that this would be a good idea so who am I to be the voice of reason?! I thought I would never get another kitty so I am stupid happy over it, but very nervous about the introductory phase with the dogs and the fear that after we've completely fallen in love with her Z will have an asthma flair. To help prevent that we are going to the allergist next week and making sure there is nothing different we need to be doing to make sure everyone stays healthy and happy.
My day to day life is quite surreal to me - today I ironed, washed the dogs, sewed, read to and played with Z... basically 1950s housewife life, and it is wonderful. It's mind boggling to me that I have spent so much time and effort in life to go to school, to build a career, to end up here, staying home taking care of my little love - and I have never been happier. I'm still trying to figure out what I'm going to do in a year when I go back to work or school, but for now I know with 100% certainty I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
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